Date 05/04/2013.
Four years have passed that I started writting this blog, I have not ammended in those years. I have lots of thing in my mind but loosing my capacity to write.
In the last four years I losxt some, gained some and something remained the same.
What I lost are the friends, social contacts, relatives, etc. Also some sort of fear developed in me to maintain contact with others. The fear is the questions/enquiries/queries of others regarding me.
The other thing I lost is health. Out of many is my back pain. Although I do not have to take any medicine as of now, yet I have to do exercise daily to subside the pain. The exercise gives strength to my back muscles. Otherwise pain starts in the lumber portion which also make me unable to stand for long.
Now a days I feel exhaustion and feel breathlessness.
Another health issue which doesn't affect physically is the psycological problems. Some may say it as mental problem. I became angry, violent, depressed etc. But I am suffering from this. For this I visit a Psychiatrist. I first visited him about six months back. His medicine relieved me. I somewhat became better then discontinued his medicine. But the situation again became the same. Then he told to continue the medicine for two years.
Now what I gained in the last years. First is my increased salary. My first salary was Rs. 1850 for part of month in Feb-Mar 1996. Then next months full salary was Rs 2500 per month. My present salary is about Rs. 35000 per month which means 14 times increase in 17 years.
Had I imagined 18 years before in the same morning, that after 18 years where I shall be. I do not imagine of next day so the question of 18 years is unimaginable. Did I imagined then that after 18 years I will be working in AC office, I.e. Santragachi RRI. No one consider it important of imaging about next days, so do I.
